Not a stellar week...

[N7YA]

I try never to lament publicly, but im feeling low.

Due to recent tumult, and continuously unfolding events all over the place, its hard to feel upbeat. First of all, i absolutely have had it with this horrible city. Las Vegas is a cesspool of humanity, you've heard me say it many times before, but i truly feel now that we are trapped in a minimum security prison for the next 1-2 years. I have very few true friends here, the place is consumed by greed, addiction, shallow imagery and outright insanity. Its a violent place and its making me feel the same. I sincerely wanted to leave that part of my past in the past, but now were back to weapons shopping and Krav Maga. I fear for my wife when she goes to work, quite a few people have been murdered right where she works, both inside the casino and outside where she used to be stationed. We view Las Vegas as nothing more than a military deployment and count the days when we can rotate home. I cant even draw my stupid little pictures without some asshole hacking my shit and threatening my life...no joke, i have the voicemails and emails. Im done being nice here. We got to get out of here before im the one who ends up in Indian Springs.

As far as the rest of the country goes. Hard to feel patriotic when we elect the terrorists to run the asylum, then argue about which fat bastard is less damaging and why we should uniformly support the "less evil" fat bastard, while ignoring the blatant fact right in front of us, we are tearing at eachother and not at the ones who keep us in this spot because we dont know the answers and its more convenient to blame the next guy. This second paragraph is the frustration we are all struggling with now, i know its not just mine, im not that arrogant. I am guilty, however, of voting for Obama once. I will NEVER be guilty of voting for a republican...never have, never will. I feel everything is wrong with that group of criminals down to a molecular level. I will not vote democrat anymore either as they are both sponsored by the same people. Im also through blaming citizens for voting for a party i dont like, or doing a football high-five for those who voted the way i like...its our fault, and its not. Complacency with a two-party system desinged to keep us separate and bickering is our fault, looking for someone to lead us as a nation, a business and a people is not our fault, its our right...if anything, a perfectly justifiable expectation.

So, thats it...i needed to rant, you guys are smart and can decipher my words properly. I'm just down these days and need to get out of here before i snap.




edit....while i was typing this, one of my singers just gave his notice because he's going on the road with a big act. Ill really miss that guy. :(

[N2CHX]

Well, quite frankly... I hear you. Some days it's really hard to stay positive. We live in trying times, for sure, and I can relate to a lot of what you said, minus the fearing for life and safety part, as I really don't deal with that. All I can say is, it will get better. At least I hope it will, for all our sakes!

[N8YX]

When the mobsters leave Vegas in droves, you know things have gotten bad.

Hang in there. Luxury is the first thing to implode when the belts tighten, and the idiots will start eating each other soon enough.

[kf0rt]

You're not alone in your feelings, Adam.

[PA5COR]

Not in the best position where i would olike to be with our divorce going on, but i very well understand your frustration and desire to leave that hellhole behind and find a better place to live.
Hang in there, that is what i try to do to stay sane here, try to look at positive things every day how few they might be.
Life sure can suck sometimes...

[n2ize]

I try never to lament publicly, but im feeling low.

Due to recent tumult, and continuously unfolding events all over the place, its hard to feel upbeat. First of all, i absolutely have had it with this horrible city. Las Vegas is a cesspool of humanity, you've heard me say it many times before, but i truly feel now that we are trapped in a minimum security prison for the next 1-2 years. I have very few true friends here, the place is consumed by greed, addiction, shallow imagery and outright insanity. Its a violent place and its making me feel the same. I sincerely wanted to leave that part of my past in the past, but now were back to weapons shopping and Krav Maga. I fear for my wife when she goes to work, quite a few people have been murdered right where she works, both inside the casino and outside where she used to be stationed. We view Las Vegas as nothing more than a military deployment and count the days when we can rotate home. I cant even draw my stupid little pictures without some asshole hacking my shit and threatening my life...no joke, i have the voicemails and emails. Im done being nice here. We got to get out of here before im the one who ends up in Indian Springs.

As far as the rest of the country goes. Hard to feel patriotic when we elect the terrorists to run the asylum, then argue about which fat bastard is less damaging and why we should uniformly support the "less evil" fat bastard, while ignoring the blatant fact right in front of us, we are tearing at eachother and not at the ones who keep us in this spot because we dont know the answers and its more convenient to blame the next guy. This second paragraph is the frustration we are all struggling with now, i know its not just mine, im not that arrogant. I am guilty, however, of voting for Obama once. I will NEVER be guilty of voting for a republican...never have, never will. I feel everything is wrong with that group of criminals down to a molecular level. I will not vote democrat anymore either as they are both sponsored by the same people. Im also through blaming citizens for voting for a party i dont like, or doing a football high-five for those who voted the way i like...its our fault, and its not. Complacency with a two-party system desinged to keep us separate and bickering is our fault, looking for someone to lead us as a nation, a business and a people is not our fault, its our right...if anything, a perfectly justifiable expectation.

So, thats it...i needed to rant, you guys are smart and can decipher my words properly. I'm just down these days and need to get out of here before i snap.




edit....while i was typing this, one of my singers just gave his notice because he's going on the road with a big act. Ill really miss that guy. :(
Amen... you are right on the money.. Neither corporate party is going to solve anything, they both suck and, at this rate we will be voting for the so called 'lesser of 2 evil" forever. As I keep stressing, it is a sick system... the SYSTEM has got to be changed once and for all/

[W4RLR]

Things do get better, and bad times do not last. I have learned this in my 55 years on the planet.

Be of good cheer, your time in Las Vegas will soon pass.

As an aside to Cor, I am sorry to hear of your divorce. Been there, done that thirty years ago, I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy.

[w0aew]

I'm not being flippant when I suggest some sort of counseling. For a quick fix I'd recommend you try a psychiatrist first to see if some sort of meds would help out in the short haul. A good shrink can then recommend a psychologist or other therapist for longer term work if that's deemed helpful. When you feel cornered in what sounds like a battle zone, it's time to get assistance until you can get out.

[N7YA]

Thank you guys. :) Im never the kind to pander for kind words, but they are nice to hear...everyone gets kicked a few times once in a while. Its mostly frustration talking, im seriously not going to go thrash this idiot, but i am still going to persue him legally until he feels the pressure and gets a clue that people bite back sometimes...he's done this to other artists, i just found out. But my wife and i had a long discussion last night and again this morning about the importance of self defense for our home and our person. We have found a KM school up here by the house, considering where we work, its a good idea to have some skills up your sleeve. And my wife walks to her car alone at night without any personal defense measures, but shes a very aggressive-minded pacific islander with military training, she just needs an extra edge, so we bought her a couple of small items from a tac supply store for her keychain, knucklepoints, things like that. I carry expensive equipment to my car alone at night as well, and many people have been murdered in that exact parking structure for much less...ill be damned if im next! I have all my gear in backpack format so my hands are free to use my defense measures. So, thats it...i am more insulted and annoyed by this person now than anything else, and i know i wont be doing anything stupid unless my life is in immediate danger, and it isnt.


As for Vegas, my wife and i sleep on visions of lobsters dancing around a maypole, gleefully tossing blueberries in the air, and joyously swandiving into the pot while a chorus of blackflies sing a song in their honor, then bite us...but apologize for doing so because the creatures of Maine are generally more polite than here. Our time will come, we are more determined than ever, and this makes me very happy. :) The LV housing market is coming back up drmatically, this is great because we can sell our house for more than we paid when we bought it. And when we sell it....we're gone from this wretched place, never to set foot in it again. There is light on the horizon in all this sewage.

But Cor, im sorry buddy! Ive been there, its not a good feeling at all, i cant sit here and complain without acknowledging you are probably having a much worse week than me. I hope you find a bright spot in this turn of events. :(

[N7YA]

I'm not being flippant when I suggest some sort of counseling. For a quick fix I'd recommend you try a psychiatrist first to see if some sort of meds would help out in the short haul. A good shrink can then recommend a psychologist or other therapist for longer term work if that's deemed helpful. When you feel cornered in what sounds like a battle zone, it's time to get assistance until you can get out.


I appreciate that, but i would first recommend the doc to the guy who is stalking me, he is nuts! Truly delusional. I researched the hell out of him and found out he is a very troubled guy and his ego gets bruised at the slightest touch, to the point of trying to assume the identity and become the source of his own pain. Im far more self analytical than that, i just have a red button when i feel cornered by a legitimate threat. Ive been to many psych professionals when i was younger (because my dad was crazy and thought it would be better to put it on me so he didnt feel so crazy, long story...but hes in prison now, you can fill in the blanks) and i found them to be absolutely loony! I just sat there and listened to them and realized i really had nothing to complain about. :lol:

[PA5COR]

I'm not alone in misery i see.
Getting a fresh supply of diazepam today, so i can at least get some sleep, lost 10 pounds in 3 weeks, can't sleep, lost interest in hobby's etc.
Have an appointment with the housedoctor monday and will see what he says and what can be done.
Next week i also start in a program to see what work i still can do with my limitations, 4 days a week, and make a income, next to my disabillety allowance and alimony i get from the wife.
Sorting out the last bits of our divorce, a few meetings with the divorce consulent and then stuff goes to the judge to make it final.
Having my son still in the house keeps me from going mad, and forces me to go through the motions, and follow some kind of daily routine.
Sorry to put it all here, but it just shows there are more members here that don't have a good time now, all very depressing.
Take care all, ;)

[VK3ZL]

"Life is a bitch and then you die".

Adam, it's not fair when you are driven to exasperation by things not in your control..If you are really thinking to make a new start in a better place take your time to sum up the positives..If the current situation shows no sign of ending, then for your own sakes make plans to change, Sometimes we blind ourselves focusing on the problems and that makes it all the harder to make rational decisions..The bitterness and frustration you radiate in your post is not good and something has to give..I wish you well and hope that you can come to the right solution that is best for you and your partner..

Bob..VK3ZL..

[NQ6U]

I'm not alone in misery i see.
Getting a fresh supply of diazepam today, so i can at least get some sleep, lost 10 pounds in 3 weeks, can't sleep, lost interest in hobby's etc.
Have an appointment with the housedoctor monday and will see what he says and what can be done.
Next week i also start in a program to see what work i still can do with my limitations, 4 days a week, and make a income, next to my disabillety allowance and alimony i get from the wife.
Sorting out the last bits of our divorce, a few meetings with the divorce consulent and then stuff goes to the judge to make it final.
Having my son still in the house keeps me from going mad, and forces me to go through the motions, and follow some kind of daily routine.
Sorry to put it all here, but it just shows there are more members here that don't have a good time now, all very depressing.
Take care all, ;)

Been through that myself, Cor, know what it's like. It's going to be tough sledding for a little while but all you can do is try to keep a positive attitude (difficult, I know) and most importantly: don't beat up on yourself! Muddle through the best you can—it does get better.

[PA5COR]

I know, just got my new dose temazepam, to get me some sleep in the night, wanting to build off the stuff asap.
No need to become addicted to it, next week i'll enter a program to work 32 hours a week, to assert what i still can or cannot do with my limitations, 4 weeks after that i should get my allowance to get by, not much just 1 K euro a month but with subsidized rent and healthcare that will be 300 euro a month and 200 for gas water and electric leaving 500 to live on for a month and my son's money he pays in for living in, another 500 euro.

The rest of the divorce will take 6 weeks or so, then i just have to start my new "improved "life...